blah blah blah but yeh I wish you were my shadow

Christmas break

2007-01-01T00:36:55Z

I totally forgot I had a livejournal.

awesomeee!

love,
alex

PITTSBURGH

2006-09-03T21:14:15Z

i like college a lot. everything is starting to get into a groove, everything is starting to get a pattern. the first days were crazy with parties and people and finding classes but now im secure. I think I can handle this. Quentin came to visit, and falling asleep to him and TJ laughing and stuff reminded me of stafford. sometimes i wake up and miss my little sister, or I hear brennan in my head, but i realized that i can control my sadness by just accepting it and moving on. Its okay to be sad, cos I wont be forever.

...except I hate doing laundry. Fuckkkkk laundry.

nothingmoves @ 2006-07-19T14:47:00

2006-07-19T18:52:51Z

Dear Everyone,

My hang out session with Michele will begin promptly at 215 pm on this Friday, the 21st. We will go to DC and either see Insane African Tribal Music or perhaps The Secret Machines. We aren't really sure. She will, during her stay, meet T.J. Baker, my man, for real at some point and also frolick in his pool/trampoline/backyard with me, hopefully. Another thing that I plan on doing is taking her, a D.C. experienced Floridian, and Bianca, a non-D.C. experienced Floridian, both into our nation's great capitol at some point. Also on the agenda: back to school shopping grlfrienddddddd. At 150 pm on that next Tuesday, the 25th, Michele will depart and fly bak home to my other hometown: Davie, FL.

I am incredibly excited.

That is all.

love,
alex rhodes

leavin' on a jet plane =]

2006-07-08T12:08:48Z

p.s. beach until next saturday, the 15th.

love you guys!
text me!

feeling good

2006-07-08T03:09:16Z

This is just a general announcement to let specific friends know that I am not very happy right now. I haven't been for a couple of days and I just realized why. This is it: every guy that I have ever kissed, with the exception of one T.J. Baker, has officially stopped talking to me.

I hate ex-relationships because, as it turns out, I am literally only good for one thing. I am appearently not worth it unless the possibility of a physical relationship is present. Thanks guys. Fuck you.

Maybe it's the guys I chose to kiss; maybe I just kiss assholes. But regardless, it makes me feel a little bit worthless. The thing that hurts is that I don't stop caring about people. I always try to stay friends no matter what because fighting or akward situations... that's dumb.

I think that's what has been bothering me lately. That's pretty much it. I think my problem is that I just kiss a bunch of guys that really aren't interested in anything other than kissing me at that moment in time. That makes me feel kind of stupid, but mostly just like nothing. It makes me feel like I'm nothing at all because I was obviously nothing to a handful of boys that I once cared a lot for.

Fuck yeah!
-
alex

FYI

2006-06-19T02:24:42Z

I'm at the beach from Monday morning til Thursday afternoon ish.

Call, text, whatever... I'll think of you while Im tanning and you arentttt ahahah

<3333
alex

06!!!

uh

2006-06-13T01:53:42Z

i cant sleep

Sad High School Entry

2006-06-09T22:08:41Z

The only time I actually cried at all this past ending week of high school was on the last day of Governor's School. Isn't that weird? I thought I'd be happiest to leave CGS... but I guess I did because I know all the people that are important to me in my other classes will either keep in touch or not matter to me. But there's a problem with Governor's School relationships in that you spend SO MUCH TIME in school together that it feels weird to NOT be in school with those people. I connect school with those people so much that I almost can't imagine still being connected to them outside of that. And that's sad. Because I care so much about them. I wish all of them luck even though I kow they won't need it.

I really do love you guys. Thanks for the past three years. Thanks for not hating me even though I was a weird-ass with bad hair and dressed skanky as hell. I respect all of you more than you know, and I'm so happy we're all going on to be something great.

--
Alex

i like the dave matthews band ahaha

2006-05-15T23:37:49Z

You've got your ball,
You've got your chain
Tied to me tight, tie me up again.
Who's got their claws
In you my friend?
Into your heart I'll beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock,
And sweet you roll
Lost for you, I'm so lost for you

Oh, and you come crash into me
And I come into you
And I come into you
In a boy's dream
In a boy's dream

Touch your lips just so I know
In your eyes, love, it glows so
I'm bare-boned and crazy... for you.

Oh, and you come crash into me
Baby, and I come into you
In a boy's dream
In a boy's dream

And if I've gone overboard
Then I'm begging you
To forgive me
In my haste
When I'm holding you so girl,
Close to me

Oh and you come crash into me, yeah
Baby, and I come into you
Hike up your skirt a little more
And show the world to me
Hike up your skirt a little more
And show your world to me
In a boy's dream
In a boy's dream

Oh, I watch you there
Through the window
And I stare at you
You wear nothing, but you
Wear it so well
Tied up and twisted,
The way I'd like to be
For you, for me, come crash into me, baby
Come crash into me, yeah

Crash into me...
Crash into me...
Crash into me...

You know, I'm the king of the castle,
And you're the dirty rascal, crash into me.
Please crash into me, baby...

Oh, no no no...
Yes,
I see the wave come and crash into me.
I See the wave come and crash into me.
Crash into me.

nothingmoves @ 2006-05-11T19:11:00

2006-05-11T23:27:05Z

"battle not with monsters, lest you become one"

nothingmoves @ 2006-05-09T20:28:00

2006-05-10T00:39:54Z

5-9-04

I'd never be who I am now without that date. Not that I am all that great right now, but anything particularly good about me came about because TJ asked to be my boyfriend two years ago today.

I wonder if anything has changed. I can't really write much because I know someone is gonig tor ead this and think I am a moron. I kind of am.

jfdkslfjdlsk

2006-05-03T00:56:14Z

tonight, I feel like more

I like stuff. a lot.

2006-04-29T23:08:39Z

I like when TJ is home because we are cool.

I like playing tennis. I like playing catch in North Stafford's practice feild. I like checking out the fort that tj, quentin, and david coleman made in the 8th grade. I like green tea. I think TJ also enjoys these things. Or, maybe he just does them cos I make him but either way he's very enjoyable to be around.

I like when TJ is home because I love him very much and I miss him when he is gone.

Tonight:
Annie, Matt, Joshy, Ashley and I are going to get prom dresses. hahaha. I hope Josh and Matt find good ones.

today has been a very good day thus far.

love,
alex.

P.S.
The new park in my neighborhood is opening tomorrow. SWEET!!!!

nothingmoves @ 2006-04-27T22:41:00

2006-04-28T02:45:46Z

FUCK

1) I SUCK SO FUCKING HARD

2) I SAY WORDS LIKE "FUCK" ON INTERNET JOURNALS

3) I HATE PEOPLE

4) I WANT TO SLEEP; BUT I CAN NOT

5) I SUCK SO FUCKING HARD

6) MY LAPTOP IS FREAKING OUT

7) FUCK YOU; IM DONE

nothingmoves @ 2006-04-24T19:11:00

2006-04-24T23:11:50Z

Uhm. ALRIGHT.

what the fuckkkkk ever

college freak out

2006-04-19T18:18:18Z

1) I'm glad I'm going to college. It would be really nice to just stay in Stafford, though. I don't want to leave my family. So Josh tells me, "take a year off," but ya, the whole hanging around downtown fredericksburg and chillin' with 15 year olds after I graduate doesn't really appeal to me.

2) Unless that 15 year old kid is my sister. I like my sister a lot. She is the only person I know that really gets it. So many kids her age are SO stupid. So many kids MY age are so stupid, but she's so beyond that. I'm really pround of her horse-back riding stuff and her school stuff and just the way she carries herself. Some people don't understand her and get pissed off because she's prettier and nicer than they can really comprehend and in general just like 10 times better than them. I don't blame them, though, I don't expect people like them to be able to even get near her, let alone understand her. I'm gonna miss Ashley, but at the same time I know I will be home a lot to visit and we have phones and computers and blah blah blah. Everything works out.

3) I'm gonna miss a lot of people besides Ashley, too. These people include:

Brennan Michael Rhodes -- I want to watch him grow up and I don't want him to forget me. I don't want him to think I'm leaving because I want to. I know all these kids in high school with like 30 year old brothers and sisters, and it's not even like they are siblings. They don't know or care that much. I don't want that to be me and Brenny. I want to be his sister. I want to take care of him and be a constat in his life. I don't want to go to college and leave him.

And I hate to say this but Governor's School. I really do care about all of my governor's school friends. 4 hours a day for 3 school years. I'm not gonna get into this cos its stupid. But I'm sad its over. I'm sad that I learned so much from each one of them and...I don't know. There's a lot of stuff that I wonder about.

I think next summer is going to be fun, though. After Annie and Jackie and I come home to Ashley and Josh and Matt and everyone I think it will be cool. I think college is going to be good. Im excited to move. I'm excited to bring Ashley new stories when I come home.

=]

2006-04-13T22:43:33Z

I love:
annie
matt grundy
josh murtha
jackie
george
michi
etc.

and

GRACIE <3

gkdsljgkdls

2006-03-11T04:10:49Z

ahahahhaaaha

fuckkk you stafford high school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ohh man I love quentin roos and tj baker and my sister

ohmygosh

2006-02-20T21:22:50Z

OMG I LOVE MICHELE MARIE YARED SO MUCH

I miss her but I had so much fun

<33333
best weekend ever

nothingmoves @ 2006-02-14T21:18:00

2006-02-15T02:21:56Z

MY VALENTINES:

Daddy
Ashley Rhodes
Brennan Rhodes
TJ Baker
Josh Murtha

MICHELE YARED IS COMING UP TO SEE ME REALLY SOON COS SHE LOVES ME AND I LOVE HER

<333
alexxxxx

nothingmoves @ 2006-01-27T18:32:00

2006-01-27T23:33:33Z

OH MY GOD

SHUT THE FUCK UP

NO ONE LIKES YOU

on a compeletly unrelated topic, I have a crush on Matt Grundy. Don't tell Annie. My sister taught me how to seduce people so here it goes...

fhdlsjfdkla

2006-01-08T20:37:42Z

I like riding bikes with my little brother. he is pretty cool.

also:: I like people that play Hail to The Redskins on a church organ. That is good stuff.

I like talking to tj until 4 in the morning about Penguins hockey games.

and also I like to go shopping and sketch Alan Weiderman naked.

End Of Weekend !!!

fuck you.

2006-01-08T05:40:13Z

sometimes I think you're kidding
but mostly I don't think 'bout that
you leave, you laugh, you watch me watch you
but you never kiss me back.
I'm sure you've ever kissed me back.

...

2006-01-05T02:24:49Z

I don't like this. I don't feel right.

I'm so sorry.

I love you,
alex

ughhhh

2005-12-28T20:18:34Z

sooo

I drove all the fuck over virginia last night.

it was cool.

<3
alex